Board Thread:Chapter Discourse/@comment-36009152-20200501150800/@comment-45762951-20200601015036

S3r0-Ph1i wrote: What was interesting is that Mika saw the squad coming, Shinoa specifically and seemed to have assumed the same thing, that Yu would be fine. Yet here Asuramaru realized Yu never really was the same after the loss of Mika, and his happiness around his squad a hollow imitation of the true connection Yu had with Mika.

So if Mika is gone, Yu will magically bond with Shinoa and all will be well? Wouldn't count on it. I mean maybe not the last part but people change.

Someone important to me died. The thing is it was so shocking. It literally took me three days to realize they were gone for good.

I thought one of those 3 days they might ressurect.

When I watched them die in front of me. I thought I would be scared to see a dead body. But even while they were still dead and I kissed them on their forehead.

They got cremated and as soon as I found out I broke down crying.

I thought how am I supposed to live without them.

I wanted to die in their place.

I didn't expect this behavior from myself because I thought I didn't want to die but it didn't matter because that was how I felt at the time.

So here I am still living without them with the comfort of the rest of my family.

I didn't know I was this strong without them but I sure as heck miss them.